Despite my last post, I am in a festive mood. Just trying to sort out that super easy subject of How To Be In A Relationship Without Being An Asshole. Note: I still haven’t figured it out.

But I’m trying.

And that counts for something, yes?

It’s just sort of exhausting, you know? Because I’m so frustrated at my asshole-ness to begin with. Like, I would never have problems in a relationship if I wasn’t such a jerk. But I’m aware enough to realize that 1) It is hardly 100% my fault all the time and B) EVERY relationship is going to have issues because you have TWO different people trying to put a life together and you both have your baggage and your buttons and your way of saying something in that certain kind of way WHICH PISSES ME OFF.

Ahem.

I must admit that I have rarely ever shared the holidays with a significant other and it is sort of appealing to me in that warm and fuzzy sort of way that I now have someone to share this time with. It’s confusing though because now that I have this perfectly awesome person sitting next to me in front of a fire, when am I going to find the time to put on Sarah McLachlan’s Christmas album (AKA The Most Depressing Christmas Album of All Time) and have a good cry into a glass of wine because NO ONE WILL EVER LOVE ME?!

It’s kind of surprising because I initially go to that place of “Gee. It’s the holidays and I really wish I had someone to share it wi…what? Oh. Right. He’s RIGHT HERE. YOU THERE! RUB MY FEET.

So, um. We are sharing it. And trying not to kill each other in the process. So far we are both alive and in rather good spirits and that’s good stuff, AM I RIGHT? I just hope he gets me some good presents. Because we all know that’s what Christmas is all about.

Thank you for sticking with me while I try to navigate this very fine line of telling you about my life and also keeping some things private. The relationship thing has always been extremely hard for me to navigate and I’m trying to be respectful so I don’t go all 14 year old passive-aggressive LiveJournal on PCG’s ass and be all, OMG U WILL NEVER BELIEVE WUT MAH BOYFREND DID!!1!!1!

Oh wait. I will do that right now.

My boyfriend:

* walked twenty-five blocks in the blizzard on Sunday morning at 3:30 AM to get to me
* took me for a snowy walk in Central Park
* bought me brand new snowboots during that walk because my old boots from college were…old and caused snow to leak into my socks and get my feet wet
* bought me dinner that night and a hot apple cider for dessert

I CAN GET ONBOARD WITH THIS RELATIONSHIP THING YOU GUYS!!!

Merry Almost Christmas! The blog posts will most likely be few and far between as I try to spend as much time with my family as humanly possible because oh Lord, they are fantastic people. Then again, they drive me nuts so I might need to come on here and tell you about the gift I bought for my mom. IT IS COMEDY GOLD, YOU GUYS. Until then, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL! AND TO ALL, I HAVE SOME NEW SNOWBOOTS!!!