Clarity
I just lost my job.
So.
I am going to drive to the ocean and jump in because I’m not entirely sure what else to do.
Possibly eat a cupcake?
I sometimes complain that the people in my office use words like “bandwidth” and organize meetings to talk about meetings but…
My job is amazing.
My boss is so incredibly generous and flexible with my schedule and understanding and accommodating and when she started to cry in her office today, so did I. And then I couldn’t stop. Because co-worker after co-worker kept coming up to me and offering me help with job searching and telling me how much they’re going to miss me and I had an audition to get to and my face was all blotchy and oh. my.
So that happened.
I have two weeks left which is incredibly kind.
After that, I do not have the slightest clue. Not a bit.
There have been swarms of people who have been laid off in the recession, people who have lost Big Important Financial jobs and who, in unemployment, have found their life’s bliss. They stay home with their kids. Or they start a business. Or they finish a book. And they were cut years ago. They have mortgages and children and spouses to support.
I do not. I was lucky to have made it this far, especially considering the company I work for.
I hope the next chapter of my life holds some exciting brilliant THIS ALL WORKED OUT FOR A REASON moments.
I do know that things tend to unravel the way that they should. And that things are in store for me that I cannot yet see.
And it seems so silly, doesn’t it? To be so upset about the loss of my stupid Temp Job at Big Unstable Bank Company.
But…I counted on this job.
I depend on it.
And I must admit to you, my co-workers? My boss? I love them.
And I haven’t yet made it an hour without my throat closing up and the tears pouring down and the overwhelming bewilderment of “What am I going to do now?”
I simply don’t know.
Laura. You are going to be so, so, so fine. I am totally sorry to hear about your job (especially this way) but I am so confident that this IS going to lead to something new and different and will help you to grow even more. So yikes for now, and you are entitled to be scared and sad, and THEN you will be entitled to be awesome and great and wonderful YOU!
Oh my, just read this and my intial reaction is I am so sorry…
and yes you will be okay
You’ll be fine. Snap out of it. And, hey! Look on the bright side! Now you have an argument for not paying for your own car insurance
Plus, you’ll have all that extra time when I’m in town…
Awww,
Sorry to hear. Loosing your job is always quite a hit. That said it seems like you have great family and friend support networks out there so overall I think you are in pretty good shape.
It’s time to brainstorm, talk to yourself, pace lots and send urgent missives off to the manifestation fairies… as soon as you know what you want to do next.
Kind Regards
Belinda
So sorry to hear! Well if you ever want to marry a country boy and move to a farm, my two brothers are still available
I definitely recommend cupcakes over jumping in the ocean.
No need to feel shameful or silly in grieving this loss–it can be scary to be unemployed, and the job’s been a good arrangement for you. Hope your last two weeks go well and that you begin to see glimpses and glimmers of what good things are around the corner.
Oh I am sorry sweetie
Dunno what to say :\
Deanna - good try on the car insurance excuse…nice one!
I know our darling Laura is going to come up smelling like roses and be soooo fine there will be no living with her. Um, should it happen that she DOES have to live with us…that would NOT be a bad thing. We miss her soooo much.
Prayers and hope for great things are for you, Lauda Poo!
I hope the beach was the soothing and healing effect it usually is.
I love you.
Yeah, it’s going around. This shark just got fired. Somebody should have told him to just eat a cupcake.
You are going to be fine. I know it’s hard to believe right now but you are going to be fine! Ocean and beach is good, I know the ocean always help me come to peace and clarity and if all else fails, make some cupcakes and have a tea party in your swirly pink skirt. I am here if you need anything.
I’m so sorry! That’s always rough and there’s no reason to feel guilty about being sad and scared.
Something great will come along. I’m sure of it. And as Deanna says, it’s a pretty good argument for the car insurance debate.