My life has been kind of overwhelming lately which doesn’t make any sense because there really isn’t anything going on.

Like, at all.

Today I cleared some boxes out from under my desk at work as Ivan the Mailman watched. It was like pulling clowns out of a clown car, on and on, an endless tower of boxes, a credit to my JUST IN CASE pack rat mentality. What did I think I was going to use all those boxes for? I’m not entirely sure. All I knew was that it was probably safer to keep them close by rather than toss them out by the freight elevator.

And I suppose, this is what my life has been like lately. A neverending stack of crap that I will never use. WHAT? My metaphors suck. So do my similes.

No, I mean. Wait.

Maybe I’m overwhelmed BECAUSE nothing is going on.

You know?

Lots of areas of my life are at a standstill. And maybe I’m ready for some changes? Or a vacation? Or a nap?

I’m hoping things will pick up soon. I’m headed to not one but TWO college graduations this weekend—my mother graduates with a master’s degree from Fordham on Saturday morning and my sister graduates with an B.A. in Psychology on Sunday up in New Paltz. So, I’m thinking maybe I will get some good family quality time in, maybe some amusing stories, or maybe I’ll just get stressed out beyond belief because it’s supposed to rain all weekend and let’s face it: 48 straight hours with mah peeps can be a bit much.

Perhaps I should buy a flask.

Other than that, I’m laying low. I’ve been seeing a lot of good theatre and reading a lot of good books and maybe that’s enough for now. Two of my besties are peacing out for the summer and I’m coming to terms with the fact that my social life is going to have to adjust and maybe it’s time to make some new friends. Or deepen my relationships with existing acquaintances. I don’t know how to do this. All I know is I’m terrible at it. Really and truly terrible at making friends.

I’m good at dating.

I’m not so good at making friends.

And really, besides the tonguekissing, aren’t they similar?

Maybe I can remedy that?

Work on it, if you will.

I think I might.

And if no one wants to be my friend, it will be me and The Roommate and all my CSA vegetables hanging out this summer. I need to make a To Do list so I accomplish some goals, especially since my friends will be out of town. The next few months might be the perfect time to get some things done.

But…what, exactly?

TO DO

1. Clean out boxes under cubicle.

Well, awesome. That’s done. What’s next!?